My mother went from great, loving, supportive, strong and fun to immature, trashy, selfish, phony and cruel.
My reasons for not speaking to her are two fold.
1. I just don't like her. I don't want to share my life with her. I don't want to play cards with her. I don't want to call her. I don't want to be
around her - period. She is so different in such a weird way that I guess I see it as phony. I can't even figure out if this is the real her, the new
her or a temporary her. Regardless, I don't like her. I still haven't figured out how the word love fits into this. Can we stop loving a parent? It
seems like a sin. Unconditional love - is that a requirement?
2. The way she is treating my dad during the divorce procedure makes me irrate. Her new charater has been revealed in a demonlike state and
the way she is behaving is absolutely disgusting. That's the word I commonly come to when I try to verbalize this to close friends...
disgust. Many people tell me that I am wrong for letting the divorce bother me, but I disagree. I think that it is a true display of character. The
way we treat others, especially in uncomfortable situations, reveals alot about our character, and hers sucks. I won't go into detail but trust me in
that I don't have one sided info. I have read the letters that go back and forth. I have seen the house after she moved out. I have read her notes to
my father. He shares both sides of the picture so that I don't have a warped view. I am basing my judgement on facts, not his opinions. I have a very
close relationship with my dad and have convinced him taht I need to know everything taht goes on. (I think I am beginning to regret that).
So those are my two reasons. I don't like her. I don't like the way she is treating my dad. |